*is this thing on?*
Whooooo. Its been FIVE MONTHS, guys, FIVE MONTHS since I've been on this thing. I've been writing, trust me on that. But my writing isn't making it HERE, at least not yet. But today, here we are. I have something super crazy to share (at least I think its super crazy, you may thing I've just lost my damn mind and I need to go back to taking photos).
First off, this time change thing just plain sucks. I'm all for later nights....during the summer....but with kids who are young and in school, its just plain rotten. Needless to say we hit the hay early last night. I slept wrong the night before so I was hopped up on pain meds, icy hot, and a heating pad. At some point during the night I had a dream that I was playing the flute again. (Yes, I said again. I played 5th grade through high school...band camp and all). But, trying to pick up the flute after decades of not playing was, needless to say, a "treat" for the ol' senses. (We're still in the dream here guys, stay with me). I kept trying to play my scales but it was as if it was the first time a kid picks up an instrument....lots of squeaking, honking, and air with no sound. I remember looking at my keys on the flute and then saying "This thing just needs a tune up. The pads are cracked and the keys are damaged". Yes, definitely the instrument's faulty construction at this point and not the fact that I hadn't touched it in at LEAST 15 years. At any rate, I woke up this morning at 6:30. Oddly enough, my kids were still asleep. I crawled out of bed and made my way to the kitchen to prep for the day in peace and quiet. I made lunches, poured milks, made my coffee, all in a delight of peace. and. quiet. No kids begging for things while I'm dealing with the thing they begged for 30 seconds prior. I've never experienced a Monday so delightful.
It was SO delightful that I was able to peruse Facebook, coffee in hand, while kids did their morning routines. I happened upon a Gabby Bernstein video this morning. Without even a slight hesitation I clicked on it. Gabby is like my spirit animal. She says all the things. She feels the feels. In this video she was answering questions of viewers, talking about leaning in to shame and feeling it in order to be able to let it go. She talked about not being a manic manifester (which, on occasion, I can be totally guilty of). BUT, you guys, guess what ELSE she talked about!?!??!?! *wait for it*
SHE TALKED ABOUT HOW HAVING A STRONG SPIRITUAL FOUNDATION IS LIKE PLAYING AN INSTRUMENT. THE MORE YOU TUNE IN AND PRACTICE, THE MORE YOU ARE ABLE TO PLAY. ITS A MENTAL RECONDITIONING. ITS CONTINUAL PRACTICE.
so, is she telling me that the reason I couldn't play my flute in my dream was due to me not playing for 15 years?! It wasn't, in fact, due to the instrument's faulty construction!? WHAT?!
Was this the universe's way to remind me to keep leaning in to my faith???
Dreams are weird, guys. And things like this are weird.